I Had Hoped You'd See My Face;;

Video URL: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aY5ikWUyJik

Added: Feb 23, 2012

From: leecrew82

Duration: 1:38

x;;and that you'd be reminded.||~Read Description~||||~Dedication~||I still miss you so much. It's...I know I'm pathetic. I know. I'm sorry. It's stupid to still feel so hurt and lonely without you, after all this time. It's been nearly a year since I got that email from you. Nearly a year since that last time you actually talked to me. Heaven only knows how much I've talked to you. You had said to "tell you if it was too much". I've been telling you for a year that it's too much, but you've never heard me. Because I do it on GoodReads or in my journals. Because it is too much, you know? I'm just too much of a coward to do anything about it.Sometimes, I feel like I'm okay. But I don't like talking about those times, because it just makes me look like more of an idiot when I'm not okay again. Which is more often than the former. I hide it from everyone, everything around me; if someone were to know how badly I was suffering? If I had to look into someone's eyes and know that they knew all the things I've felt this last year and how painful it has been, I don't think I'd be able to stand it. It's been so terrifying, all this secret keeping. And you know who's sitting next to me now in APUSH. And she talks to you across the room all the time. Every other second, I hear her whisper-yell your name. As if my own mind wasn't already screaming it inside me head, like an alarm. It's been tormenting. I wish my thoughts had an off button so I wouldn't have to deal with it anymore. Because it's killing me. Slowly, but surely, I'm dying day by day.I remember the last time I really talked on the phone with you. I was practicing a song on the piano, singing it. I thought I had you on mute, because my stage fright is so bad. But I didn't, and you said, "I've missed the sound of your voice." It only seemed fitting to let you hear it again. To hear, from me, how much pain I'm in. I sometimes wish I could blame you. That I could be angry at you, because then at least I wouldn't hate myself so much. But I can't. I just can't.||~Description~||This is about the most lazy editing ever. I know it's terrible. I know it's sloppy. I know that several notes I sang were off ("for me", asekjruenk). But I mean, I was half-crying in that take, and since I was basically sobbing by the time I had finished, I couldn't afford to do another one."Your presence still lingers here & it won't leave me alone.""I would have died; I would have loved you all my life.""How can you stand there & act like you're so sorry, when you know no apology can fix me.""Remember the times when we started believing everything would be alright?"I'm just...fading away. I know it's pathetic and stupid to be this distraught, this self-destructive over a friend walking out. I get it. I know I'm an idiot for feeling this way. But nobody has made me feel this way before. I never... No; I don't think I'll go there right now. I'm not strong enough.But I know, in my heart of hearts, that I will never find someone like her ever again. Nobody will ever be able to fill the void she's left inside me. And right now, I wish I didn't even have the memories. They don't make me happy; they make me miserable. Is that terrible? To want them gone, to just erase everything in the last five years, make it so it never happened. Oh, how I wish.||~Information~||Song→Someone Like YouArtist→Adele (cover by leecrew82)Footage→Final Fantasy X; Kindom Hearts II; Final Fantasy X-2Program→Sony Vegas 9.0 PlatinumDedication→M.||~Disclaimer~||→Disclaimer: Copyright Disclaimer Under Section 107 of the Copyright Act 1976, allowance is made for "fair use" for purposes such as criticism, comment, news reporting, teaching, scholarship, and research. Fair use is a use permitted by copyright statute that might otherwise be infringing. Non-profit, educational or personal use tips the balance in favor of fair use.

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